In my head

Have you ever woke up with a song in your head? I mean out of nowhere, fresh from dreamland you wake up with a song in your head. It wasn't playing on the radio, wasn't the last song you heard before bed, but you wake up and it is there word for word and the melody repeating in your thoughts. That happened to me this morning with the song "A Long December" by Counting Crows.

Now let me defend my musical tastes, just in case you have something against Counting Crows. I love music in general, all of it. If you were to shuffle my iPod right now you are going to have upwards of 9k songs to pick from. The selection has a ton of Old Punk like The Ramones, Black Flag, Minor Threat and Fugazi. New(er) Punk like The Distillers, Rancid, Greenday and Blink 182. I have damn near every song Garth Brooks and George Strait have done plus some other country here and there. Rock legends like Led Zeppelin, The Rolling Stones, Creedence Clearwater Revival and The Who. Pop songs from Justin Timberlake, Jordan Knight and Pink. Hair Gods Poison's greatest hits, selected works from White Lion and Guns-n-Roses. Great Rock that to me defies categorization Dinosaur Jr., Social Distortion and Cake. And of course the work of The Goddess herself Tori Amos and the massively talented Sara Bareilles. My favorite band ever The Cure, greatest rap group ever Outkast, 90's Grunge, 80's Hair, Classical, Spoken Word, etc... etc... etc... ad nauseam.

The point is I LOVE music and have a huge sampling to choose from that it makes it interesting to me that one song that I can not remember the last time I heard was randomly stuck in my head this morning. I think maybe my Inner Jeffrey, my subconscious, is speaking to me.

I am sitting as I type this blog and listening to the song and breaking down the lyrics to see what hidden meaning my subconscious is secretly sending me messages with. Here is what I have chosen to hear.

"And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass "

What I took from that verse is not to over think things, enjoy them as they happen, savor them for what they are (not what they could or couldn't be). Hope springs eternal, don't deny it, embrace it, nurture it and appreciate the opportunity as it happens or you'll regret it when its gone. The cold hard past will best serve you staying there (in the past) and the warmth of something new is always just around the corner. Live life like I always had, in the moment and without fear or failures and risks.

But that's just my take on it. Maybe Inner Jeffrey just thinks I'll need to wear a hoodie today, it might be a little chilly.